i did some self-reflection over the past few days and came to a deductive reasoning that money really.. can't buy happiness.

ironically enough though,

so much for the material things i've bought for myself with money.

they didn't come easy, honestly. i worked hard for them, but the happiness that came along with them? it was so short-lived.

to speak the truth, i don't really understand why i have been struggling so hard for to feed on these selfish desires, each month.

i feel very confused & empty now. spend also not happy, don't spend also not happy.

how many out there knows how to gain permanent happiness, anyway?

p/s: don't tell me to go die, i don't want to die..